Loved

I'm SO glad you love me!!! :-D

Born Again

I found myself looking into the mirror
Knew I wasn't who I wanted to be
I was living life the way that I wanted
But my eyes reminded me I'm not free
Believed a lie so everything that I know
Says I gotta go, tired of going solo
But I'm never gonna go there again

This is what it is
This is who I am
This is where I finally take my stand
I didn't wanna fall
But I don't have to crawl
I met the One with two scarred hands
Giving Him the best of
Everything that's left of
The life inside this man
I've been born again

Newsboys

This n that

driving home from work, alone
watching the storm clouds cover
wondering if there will be anyone
to welcome me when I get home


Sitting on the raft in the pond
a thunderstorm overhead,
and lightning riddles the sky
spitting cherry pits at the volleyball players
and laughing at the faces they make

Sitting by myself on the huge log on the beach
the fish are looking at me, listening
as I play my favorite songs on my guitar

I watch the guys doing flips off the rope swing
wishing I didn't fear the things I longed to do
So grateful for the amazing things He's done in my life
Stumped by the things I wish to see changed in my heart

So happy to see my girls when they welcome me
with screams and hugs as I walk in the door at work
and so happy to finally leave them at the end of the day
leaving behind the responsibility, yet carrying it with me still
For every person we come into contact with, we are responsible for.
Realizing for every reaction, there is a catalyst,
Praying I'm part of the catalyst to bring a Godly reaction

Hating the things I do
Loving what I'm becoming
So scared to step out, to discover
So afraid to be here forever
Struggling with the woman within
Fighting every day to not be who I was
Resting in the peace the Father gives
and the knowledge of how much I am loved

Still wondering...
In spite of popular belief..
do I really look like...
Hannah Montana???!! :-D

Bugs

I was scrubbing the walls in the kitchen, and I happened to look up and see a little white bug thing with wings trying to get outside. It was looking out the window so forlornly that I couldn't bring myself to smush it. As I stood there watching the tiny creature struggling against the window, the thoughts began to come to my mind. We walk so carelessly across the yard, smushing how many tiny things, We do it unknowingly, and even sometimes we smash bugs knowingly, just cuz they're so small we can, when they bother us, or get in our way. How much smaller we are to God, yet he even LOVED us so much that he DIED for us! Little BUGS!! As He sits up there in heaven watching us, with one fingertip he could squish ten of us, but instead he cares tenderly for each of us, meeting our needs, and giving us the desires of our hearts. He listens to our problems, things so huge to us, but to him... sooo small. Thank you God for caring for this bug! :D

True Love

Tell me you don't love me any more, it doesn't matter
Flatter me, Seduce me, Tempt me, I don't care any more
In you I thought I'd found all I'd ever wanted
My bad.

Now I've got something far stronger, His love pulls me closer,
Fills my heart fuller, than you ever have

Now... I know...
What true love is...
Nothing...
I've ever known...
Could ever compare.

More

This has been my favorite summer in years!! I love the warm weather, looking at the stars at night, swimming with my littlel sis in the pool, and playing my guitar by the pond in the evening. I have the best tan I have had in years lol :D. In a couple of weeks I am hoping to go to a Formal Dinner, I am excited about that, I am working enough. A few weeks ago my transmission went out in my car, so I am spending the minimum till I can get that paid off. I hope this transmission lasts me awhile!! Today my little sister made me get onto Frontierville on Facebook.. lol, so I have been learning how to play that. I keep telling the Lord.. Ok Lord! Any time! :). I am happy, and I know that there is more.