Reaching

He sees me, Intrigued, wondering, he reaches to me, I give alittle, I reach alittle, he pulls back, its empty, no its not what he wanted. I see him, intrigued, wondering, I reach out, will he answer? He answers, reaching out, yet another one, he gives alittle, I pull back, nothing there, no, its not what I wanted. We see each other, Intrigued, wondering, we reach out, we give alittle, we pull back, its empty, no its not what we wanted....They all become friends, we all lose touch, except a few of them, think I am worth keeping around, for a good conversation every now and then.

When?

Just want someone to love... who loves me in return, who won't leave me. Is that so much to ask? I spend time with Jesus, my heart still aches. There is a huge hole gaping where Bret used to be. When do I get a turn to be loved? When?? When is it my turn to have someone to hold my hand, to hold me? Someone that I can be crazy about, and be happy with? When?

Wind

I am here
I need your spirit
May your wind blow strong
pull off the bitterness and sting
of being rejected
Fill me afresh with your life
and your presence
Let your love flow thru me
fill me up with you

Whats been happenin?

I am home alone this morning. I know God gives this peace that passes all understanding! Well, we all know He has promised to give it, but knowing you have it.. is a wonderful feeling! lol. I'm doing well. I am supposed to go in soon to have an interview for a job, one that I have thought for awhile that I would like to do. I don't know if I will get it or not, but I do know that God has something for me! :). I went thru a time where I thought for sure I am supposed to be in Virginia with my friend, but turns out she didn't need me to move out there. Maybe one day soon, or not so soon I will move out there. Its one of those things where I'm kindof feeling that God would bless me either way. He has maybe opened up somewhere over there that I could stay where I would trust the ppl I'm living with, and they would be helping me out if I need it. At the same time I am feeling that it might just be better to finish paying off debts b4 making a big move like that. I am so close... oooohhhh so close to paying off all my credit cards, I cannot WAIT till its done! lol. I know that "Rocking Chair" income... as my grandma calls unnemployment... will not last forever!! :) God has been showing me little by little what He wants in my life, and He has been teaching me PATIENCE!! ME!! learning PATIENCE! lol. I know its something that I will keep learning all my life, but I feel that with his help I have been taking strides in this area! Thank you Lord! Well, Today is the big SUPER BOWL!!! I am not too huge on either of the teams, so I am not as excited as I should be I guess, but I think I'm gonna celebrate with my fam today. Can't wait to see who wins!!!! :) Nuff for now! Maybe I'll go make some cookies... Sarah Leigh