My life has been SO busy!!! I am enjoying it immensely. When I was little I thought I knew what my life would be at this age. I laugh heartily at the memory. What I am now is far far different than who i thought I would be. Life is going faster and faster, I wish I could stop it, and enjoy more this time!!!! I miss my family, I see them rarely, I love all my new friends, they are all gifts to me, straight from heaven, as well as the friends that I've had for years. I thank my God for each one!! This week I have training for my job, I am looking forward to it! At the same time dreading it!! LOL, will be working my reg hours, and going to training 8 hours during the day!!! WHEW!!! that will be fun.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Meet me
Meet me here, in this place
meet me here, in this stillness
Fulfill all my desires
My heart is open before you
Fix what needs mended
sooth the painful parts
You alone are my healer
take my heart in your hands Lord
Burn away the filth Lord
Turn my eyes apon you alone
cause my heart to be a refreshing oasis
walk daily on the paths of my heart
fill me with the joys of your salvation
and only let me be a joy to you precious Jesus
meet me here, in this stillness
Fulfill all my desires
My heart is open before you
Fix what needs mended
sooth the painful parts
You alone are my healer
take my heart in your hands Lord
Burn away the filth Lord
Turn my eyes apon you alone
cause my heart to be a refreshing oasis
walk daily on the paths of my heart
fill me with the joys of your salvation
and only let me be a joy to you precious Jesus
thankyou
The night is nearly over-- thankyou
My heart is at peace with you--thankyou
My family is well--thankyou
I have the best friends--thankyou
Tho I wonder, you have things in your hands--thankyou
The radio plays encouraging fun music--thankyou
I am loved--thankyou
My heart is at peace with you--thankyou
My family is well--thankyou
I have the best friends--thankyou
Tho I wonder, you have things in your hands--thankyou
The radio plays encouraging fun music--thankyou
I am loved--thankyou
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Time
The stillness grips my soul with a new clarity. The days fly by, quicker than ever, I feel myself growing away from you, I keep reaching out, hanging on with the tips of my fingers, longing for the shelter of your presence. I have run so rapidly into the arms of busyness, seeking a place to hide from this broken heart that you allowed. Help me find you God. I want you God. I need you
Monday, April 13, 2009
Little World
I'm here again in this little world. This little world in the big white house. The big white house that all the girls hate to be in, but here they find freedom in the rules. Funny how that works. By teaching discipline and guidelines, we are releasing them, giving them the power to fly to where their dreams take them, one by one. One day each of them will look back and be thankful for this little world that they were a part of. This little world of sleeping souls, each one silent, sweet, and occasional mutter, or movement. The only life is myself, doing what needs to be done to protect and prepare for the coming day. Its lonely here at night. The thought sometimes crosses my mind to wake one of them to keep me company, then I think of the other women that must deal with crankiness tomorrow, nah, I will leave them sleep. To be refreshed, so when morning comes and they all grab thier bags and head off to school, they will be able to face the day rested. Lord bless this little world please. Please let your peace reign here, tonight, tomorrow, and the days to come. IJN
Monday, March 16, 2009
Ponderings at 3 a.m.
Blessed be your name playin on pulse... The clock is ticking above my head, telling me that I'm not done with my work yet... And it'll be time to wake the girls for school in two hours.
I'm tired, but I am not tired, I'm starting to wonder where the world goes after two o clock in the morning, was it normal for me to sleep at that time of night too?? lol... Any more I almost can't sleep at that time! The other night I got home about three in the morning from a friends house!!! Then i saw my scrapbooking stuff out, and thought, hey, I can do one page real quick, I'm not that tired yet..... hee hee I finished the whole scrapbook, and found myself going to sleep at the same time my mom woke up and came out into the garage about six o clock to work out...... :). I want to go to church again. I miss it. I was just gettin back in to the habit, when I started this job. I'm so worn out on Sundays, working the 12 hour shift... Lord please help me out here??? I know this job was from you.....
I'm tired, but I am not tired, I'm starting to wonder where the world goes after two o clock in the morning, was it normal for me to sleep at that time of night too?? lol... Any more I almost can't sleep at that time! The other night I got home about three in the morning from a friends house!!! Then i saw my scrapbooking stuff out, and thought, hey, I can do one page real quick, I'm not that tired yet..... hee hee I finished the whole scrapbook, and found myself going to sleep at the same time my mom woke up and came out into the garage about six o clock to work out...... :). I want to go to church again. I miss it. I was just gettin back in to the habit, when I started this job. I'm so worn out on Sundays, working the 12 hour shift... Lord please help me out here??? I know this job was from you.....
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Coyote!!!!
I was doing inventory at three o clock this morning, when Gigi came running out of her room saying "Miss Lemler!! Miss Lemler! Hurry! Come here! I just saw a coyote! A white one by your car!!" She pulled me into her room to look out her window, then when it wasn't there any more, I went back to work. A second later she comes running out again. "Miss Lemler! Miss Lemler!! I saw it again! Its running this way!" She ran across the house, jumping onto the couch and pulling open the curtains. She pointed, "See! There is goes! Its really hard to see it!" I was laughing and looking as hard as I could, I didn't see it. LOL. But it was so fun anyway. :-).
At Breakfast she was telling Rayz and Cielo about seeing the coyote, she and Rayz were sitting with thier backs to the big window-thier normal places. The curtains were open. Osita started making this wierd noise from the other room, causing even me to do a double take. Rayz jumped up so fast eyeing the window, "I'm not sitting by the window!!!" When she figured out that it was Osita making the noise, she uneasily took her seat again, and soon all three were chatting about things outside the windows again...
I had to leave the Dining Room for a sec, when Kitty pulled me aside and asked if she could go outside . I thought a minute, and when she told me what she wanted to do I couldn't resist. I let her. I went back to the Dining Room and stood opposite the window, joining into the conversation, laughing at Cielo's stories, and Gigi's antics. All the sudden there was a loud banging at the window, and a roar from outside. I've never seen Cielo, Gigi, Rayz, or Ember move so fast, or heard any one scream so high and loud as they did!!! They all jumped to thier feet in alarm, Rayz and Gigi nearly jumping over the table to get away from the window, thier eyes as big as saucers... I was trying so hard not to laugh, but when Tigger came in from the kitchen cracking up-she'd been in cahoots with Kitty- I couldnt hold it. Soon Cielo was doubled over laughing and then the other three were too. Some of us laughing till tears were in our eyes.
On top of this, One of the other staff called to let us know there was a two hour delay, so more cheers and laughter!!! :D. For my first morning alone, I think it went pretty well. Thank you Lord!!!
At Breakfast she was telling Rayz and Cielo about seeing the coyote, she and Rayz were sitting with thier backs to the big window-thier normal places. The curtains were open. Osita started making this wierd noise from the other room, causing even me to do a double take. Rayz jumped up so fast eyeing the window, "I'm not sitting by the window!!!" When she figured out that it was Osita making the noise, she uneasily took her seat again, and soon all three were chatting about things outside the windows again...
I had to leave the Dining Room for a sec, when Kitty pulled me aside and asked if she could go outside . I thought a minute, and when she told me what she wanted to do I couldn't resist. I let her. I went back to the Dining Room and stood opposite the window, joining into the conversation, laughing at Cielo's stories, and Gigi's antics. All the sudden there was a loud banging at the window, and a roar from outside. I've never seen Cielo, Gigi, Rayz, or Ember move so fast, or heard any one scream so high and loud as they did!!! They all jumped to thier feet in alarm, Rayz and Gigi nearly jumping over the table to get away from the window, thier eyes as big as saucers... I was trying so hard not to laugh, but when Tigger came in from the kitchen cracking up-she'd been in cahoots with Kitty- I couldnt hold it. Soon Cielo was doubled over laughing and then the other three were too. Some of us laughing till tears were in our eyes.
On top of this, One of the other staff called to let us know there was a two hour delay, so more cheers and laughter!!! :D. For my first morning alone, I think it went pretty well. Thank you Lord!!!
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