Strengthen me to Stand against the Enemy!

I was reading in The Power of a Praying Woman about spiritual warfare. I want to put this on here, cuz it seems that this happens to so many women especially.

The Devil will attempt to make you believe you deserve every bad thing that happens to you. But deserving is not the issue with God. We didn't deserve to have Jesus die for us. Yet He did. The point is not whether we deserve the things the devil throws our way. The point is Jesus died so we don't have to experience them.

There is so much more to this!!! But this really stuck out to me. If you haven't read this or one of the Power of Prayer books.... Please do it!! It has helped me tremendously!!!

Just Remnants, but Stronger!!!

Its done. He's gone. I don't think he's ever coming back. Its almost as if he never was. Only memories remain, only good memories, that make me smile still! There is a few scraps of Boston Red Sox material stuffed into a plastic bag, with the New England Patriots remnants. Its alittle like my heart. Its so hard sometimes, but I refuse to feel sorry for myself. I am happy. He came, I loved, he left, He's gone. For now or forever?? Only God knows! This I don't have to worry about any more. My heart will never be the same, but God has all the pieces. He knows how to, and he is putting it back together, stronger this time. The Lord loves me, He's taking care of me. He has held me together when I was sure I would break. Today the Storm has passed, and I will cling to The One who will always be there, has promised never to leave me, and I know he never will.

The future? I'm not sure. God only knows whether I will be allowed to freely love this man again, or another some day. Either way I will trust, I will rest in Him, in His strong loving arms. I will let Him be THE ONE who loves on me. I don't want to hope for another besides Him, cuz He is truly enough for me. He loves me, just like I am. He comes to me when I call. He holds me when I cry. He walks beside me delighting in me when I'm happy. He laughs at me when I'm teasing my family. He listens and loves me when I share my deepest hurts and secrets. He never forgets about me when He's doing other things. He gives me sweet surprises and gifts throughout the day, so I know He loves me. He lets me yell and vent my feelings then holds me as I cry myself to sleep. He doesn't get angry when I do this, but stays near until I am ready to listen to what He has to say to me. He always straightens out my messes. He fills my heart to overflowing with His joy. He even stays close, and makes me feel better when I'm sicker than a dog! and.... He always holds my hand just because.... Thank you Lord for being there for me, being my everything. I love you!

New

Today....He is doing something new.

I don't have to cry any more!
He has wiped away my tears,
and filled my heart with gladness
Today I will rejoice in Him
And praise Him for all
He has done.

Dead

Written on January 26, 2009

My heart is dead. No more
poems come to me, the songs are
silent. Thats me, right now.
Help me G0d.

Happy

Happy... just wanna be happy again....
Lord please give me your joy?
Please help me live???
Help me forget?????
Just be me again?
No more tears,
When no
one
is
looking????? Please?

Thankyou, I love you Lord.

Home

Yes... I'm home now. Exhausted to the bone, but home. Can't wait to be caught up on sleep again. We drove thru the night, stopped in Indy to see a friend for a couple hours, and then we kept on comin home. So happy to not be in the car any more. Well..... all for now, gonna go pay bills, then hit the hay!

I wrote this on the way home from florida....

Buzz, buzz, buzz
Caffeine in my brain
caffeine in my blood
Buzz buzz buzz
Everything movin so fast
fingers shakin, mind racin
Buzz buzz buzz
everything is funny,
And its all cuz of the coffee!!!