Jehova's Witnesses??? Huh?? Interesting...

Tired and Lonely

Ya, its after midnight again, and instead of doing what I should do and go to sleep, I am on here. You know its funny how I get lonely in the middle of the night, cuz thats when I get off work, but every one is alseep, so there is no one to talk to. So I get on the internet....Sigh... I got in an accident tonight, and even worse I was working at the time. I was so upset about it. Thankfully the guy whose truck trailer I slid into was really nice, and didn't cuss me out. Does it ever end? It seems like this year has been thing after thing to pay for, and I can't seem to get out of it... :(. Well, so tired, so gonna go try to sleep...

Which one?

Our leisure, even our play, is a matter of serious concern. There is no neutral ground in the universe. Every square inch, every split second, is claimed by God, and counterclaimed by Satan.
C.S. Lewis

Man! Those deer sure almost got a first hand, up close look at my radiator tonight! The moon was so crisp and clear... a gorgeous night tonight!

Do you think God ever gets lonely???

Sick

Home sick from work, doesn't leave much to do. Been eating cough drops, and hot tea, and blowing my nose alot. Tried to work last night, was reallllly rough, I decided I'd better not try that again today. Other than sick, things are going wonderful, the Lord has been so good to me! For my birthday this year my brothers got me an MP3 player, so I have been putting lots of music on it, and spending alot of time listening to Worship, and uplifting music. It has been helping to fortify my spirits. When I am at work, or home, songs of praise are playing in my heart. I love to worship Him!

Cheating God

What does it mean to cheat God? Can we cheat God? Are we cheating God if we choose not to do what we know we are supposed to do? I guess so. My pastor called us to a 30-day no cheating God challenge.

Camp

The sun was shinin, there was a warm breeze, We had been at a wedding, in an old children's camp. Abby had brought the camara, so we took off exploring around the camp. We found a small chapel, and walked down by the lake taking pictures and having a great time.

If I was walking along the beach one day, enjoying the breeze coming off of the water, minding my own, and a man that I had seen around, who had, it was rumored, healed many, yet a man of considerably radical non-conformative thought, met me there... and said to me........"Come....follow me!"

Not Alone

Frustrations, stress, pushing, struggling.
Its like a knot balled up inside.
I can't, I want to, How?
Woke up with this song in my head...
You're not Alone....
I know He is speaking to me,
but I feel alone.
I don't want to do this

Grace

One thing I've learned
is that your grace covers
all my sins
I haven't figured out how
to truly forgive myself
at times
yet I am so thankful
for the new start you give
every morning

Thankyou, I love you Jesus!
Help me to realize the fullness
of your love and forgiveness.

As far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed us from our sins

Adventure

Peeks through the crack
Anticipation shines in her eyes
Heart is beating so fast
What is behind this door?!?
So excited to find out
So scared to be dissapointed
But ready for an adventure

Missing

The birds sing an enchanting song
The sun smiles warm on my skin
Kept cool by the breeze, delightful
Surrounded by the ones I love
My heart sings a melody
I have every thing I need and more
There is just one thing missing... YOU

Truck Ride

Dad said he would take me into town for a date tonight, for a pop. I asked him if we could take his red truck, but he hadn't gotten it back yet. About half an hour later my uncle pulls up with Dad's truck!! Dad was so excited to have it back. (Its been in the shop for most of the year). So after Dad and Uncle Brian tried it out together, and dad took him home, Dad, Abby and I climbed into the truck and went to town. Abby and I got Ice cream, cuz it sounded better than pop. :D. We waved at as many ppl as we could, and laughed as they looked at Dad's strange wood burning contraption on the back of his truck. We might have been driving a UFO for all the weird looks we got going thru town. Lol, was fun!

Arrows

Its after 11 pm, I just got home from work after working thirteen and a half hours. I have been yelled at, cussed at, and made to feel totally worthless by several different people. I haven't eaten a meal since 7:30 this morning, because I was at the beck and call of 10 teenage girls nearly every single minute today. The house was like a powder keg, waiting to blow up, and it did, several times, at me. Sigh. Sometimes I wonder why I do this job any more. Did I do anything good today? I'm so tired, and hungry.. lol ok, I'm gonna go eat, then fall into bed. But first, wanna thank you Lord for keeping your arms around me every moment today, and walking by my side, deflecting the arrows of the enemy. I love you!

Jake

My brothers friend brought his young son over with him, but left him in the car while he was sleeping, and we kept checkin on him for him. When he woke up I unbuckled him and picked him up, he stopped crying and curled up in my arms. It felt so good, but made a lump form in my throat. I gave him right away to his dad. Later my little brothers were entertaining him, so I joined them laughing as we watched him as he played with the puppy, then took him to his daddy. So little, so adorable, such a handful. I don't know how to handle them any more. Its been over 10 years since we've had a baby in the house. I watched Aaron with him thinking.... this could have been mine. But no. I love children, I had a big part in raising my siblings, but I seriously doubt my patience for them any more. Is it too late Lord? Is it really your plan for me to be alone forever? Tears.

Michigan

We went camping! Oh... it was alittle bit like I might imagine vacations in heaven will be like :). We listened to christian music all the way up, singing at the top of our lungs, till we could sing no more! When we got there we set up camp, then went down to the lake. I didn't wear my swimsuit down cuz I didn't think we would be swimming much, but when we got down there and the kids got into the water I couldn't resist any longer!! The water was so cool, crisp, and soo clean! I forgot how clean Kneff lake is! And my log.... lol, so much fun to play on, knocking others off, and trying to stand on it. That evening went so fast. On Friday mom and dad went to see a friend of thiers, and left the kids with my friend and I, so we went down to the beach where they found a little boy and girl, and made friends with them, while digging a giant hole in the beach. I didn't swim that time, but I was wishing I had by the time we left the beach at about 11:30, cuz the sun was getting pretty warm. We went back up the steep trail to camp, where mom and dad were ready and waiting to head towards St. Ignace and Bessie's Pasties for lunch. YUMMM!! After lunch we walked around town for awhile and got some fudge before heading back across Macinac Bridge to Grayling. When we returned to Camp Seth and Tom had arrived.. Yay! We all went swimming that evening again. Saturday dawned bright and rainy.. yes.. rain! We huddled under the tarp by the camp fire trying to stay warm while we ate hot biscuits and gravy that Susan and I made. MMmmm. We ate lunch, went shopping and to the museum in Grayling, then went back and swam, despite the lovely drizzly rain.. it still was a ton of fun! The boys managed to dig up lots of treasure off the bottom of the lake, including a few hair bands, a pair of goggles, and a full bottle of blue gatorade... lol. That night at 9:00 everyone, even mom and dad and the kids were seated in the little Grayling theater waiting for Despicable Me to start. :-D In the morning it was promising to be a lovely day, and no one wanted to go home. :(. Mom and Dad decided to stay another couple days, but the youth all loaded up camp, then we went to the SAME miniature golf place that we have gone to every time we go up there, and played a round. After a treat at Dairy Queen, we said goodbye to Grayling Michigan, and started on the way home. We had so much fun camping that my friend and I decided to camp a couple more days at the pond lol... :-D So last night.. in the rain.. again.... We were sleeping in a tent. In the morning when lightning hit really close to the tent, I decided it wasn't such a good time to be in the middle of the yard, that was the quick end to my vacation lol.

Loved

I'm SO glad you love me!!! :-D

Born Again

I found myself looking into the mirror
Knew I wasn't who I wanted to be
I was living life the way that I wanted
But my eyes reminded me I'm not free
Believed a lie so everything that I know
Says I gotta go, tired of going solo
But I'm never gonna go there again

This is what it is
This is who I am
This is where I finally take my stand
I didn't wanna fall
But I don't have to crawl
I met the One with two scarred hands
Giving Him the best of
Everything that's left of
The life inside this man
I've been born again

Newsboys

This n that

driving home from work, alone
watching the storm clouds cover
wondering if there will be anyone
to welcome me when I get home


Sitting on the raft in the pond
a thunderstorm overhead,
and lightning riddles the sky
spitting cherry pits at the volleyball players
and laughing at the faces they make

Sitting by myself on the huge log on the beach
the fish are looking at me, listening
as I play my favorite songs on my guitar

I watch the guys doing flips off the rope swing
wishing I didn't fear the things I longed to do
So grateful for the amazing things He's done in my life
Stumped by the things I wish to see changed in my heart

So happy to see my girls when they welcome me
with screams and hugs as I walk in the door at work
and so happy to finally leave them at the end of the day
leaving behind the responsibility, yet carrying it with me still
For every person we come into contact with, we are responsible for.
Realizing for every reaction, there is a catalyst,
Praying I'm part of the catalyst to bring a Godly reaction

Hating the things I do
Loving what I'm becoming
So scared to step out, to discover
So afraid to be here forever
Struggling with the woman within
Fighting every day to not be who I was
Resting in the peace the Father gives
and the knowledge of how much I am loved

Still wondering...
In spite of popular belief..
do I really look like...
Hannah Montana???!! :-D