Grace

One thing I've learned
is that your grace covers
all my sins
I haven't figured out how
to truly forgive myself
at times
yet I am so thankful
for the new start you give
every morning

Thankyou, I love you Jesus!
Help me to realize the fullness
of your love and forgiveness.

As far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed us from our sins

Adventure

Peeks through the crack
Anticipation shines in her eyes
Heart is beating so fast
What is behind this door?!?
So excited to find out
So scared to be dissapointed
But ready for an adventure

Missing

The birds sing an enchanting song
The sun smiles warm on my skin
Kept cool by the breeze, delightful
Surrounded by the ones I love
My heart sings a melody
I have every thing I need and more
There is just one thing missing... YOU

True Love

Tell me you don't love me any more, it doesn't matter
Flatter me, Seduce me, Tempt me, I don't care any more
In you I thought I'd found all I'd ever wanted
My bad.

Now I've got something far stronger, His love pulls me closer,
Fills my heart fuller, than you ever have

Now... I know...
What true love is...
Nothing...
I've ever known...
Could ever compare.

Rainy Day

Its pouring rain outside!

The wind is howling, the trees are bending.

The clouds are blowing by.

The leaves smelling fresh, the puddles filling up

Ready for you and I

Lets join hands, go out and play!

Lets skip and frolic, jump, laugh and holler...

Who cares what they think...

Lets go get wet, and enjoy this rainy day!

No Better Place

When I hear your voice, my heart skips a beat
When you smile at me, I am complete.
When you take my hand, I am at peace.
I tremble, when I feel your touch...
When you hold me tight in your arms......
there's no better place.. to be.

Need you near

You felt so far far away

I begged I pleaded

Please come closer

Please let me feel you

Here with me


You were there with me

but I couldnt feel you

Thought you hated me

Thought you despised me

For walking away


I knew you'd forgiven me

Its a promise, and you don't lie

I thought maybe I just

needed more time

then I'd feel you close again


Yesterday i was longing for you

like the roses long for the rain

doing my best for you yet

feeling I still couldn't please you

Then you opened my eyes


I finally saw, finally realised

You aren't still mad at me...

All this time, I thought you were

All this time you were here

beside me, loving me.

I'm FREE

Beautiful

I am beautiful....

Nope, I'm not a supermodel,
I do have stretch marks,
some acne,
and I'm not a size two...
But when He made me...
He made me beautiful
The beauty of a woman

When I laugh, its not just a laugh
sometimes its a giggle
When I'm embarrassed,
my cheeks turn pink
When I see a spider..
Sometimes you'll hear a shriek
The beauty of a woman

When the whole world is caving in
sometimes I just want
someone to hold me...
When I'm having a bad day...
Just wish someone would
make me smile....
When someone needs me
I'll always do my best to be there...
The beauty of a woman

God said, its not good
for man to be alone....
So he made a woman,
with all of her quirks
yet...
Beautiful.....
The beauty of a woman

I am beautiful

Wait

Waiting
Breath Short
Fingers icy
Stomach churning

Mind running
Too fast
This way
That way

Nervous
Heart Pounding
When Lord?
What now Lord???

I know
I'm where
You want me to be
Where you put me.

But whats next Lord??

Falling

Teetering, on the edge
Knowing with one breath,
That'll be the end.

Don't wanna fall,
might fall up
might fall down

Scared to fall,
Falling up will you hold me?
falling down, will you catch me?

Can I stand in the balance?
Will you help me not to waver?
Till all You fulfill??

Tamale!!!

Cook it
Mix it
Cut it
Blend it

Smack it
Hit it
Squash it
Move it

Fill it
Meat it
Mole it
Fold it

Wrap it
Tie it
Lay it
Do it again!

Over 500 times!!!

I'm not the girl I was b4

I'm not the girl I was b4.
You coming out of the shadows
Kind and caring,
abrupt, and short
what once was yours
won't break now

I'm not the girl I was b4
You think I'm the same
You think I've not changed
There is only one reason
I am still here
Only one reason,
I am not living in fear

I'm not the girl I was b4.
I don't want to be here
Just wanna move on
I don't know why
The Holy Spirit keeps askin
Prompting me to keep on
Nudging me, gently pushing....pray

I'm not the girl I was b4
run only by emotions and fears
scared to lose the one thing
I held the most dear
the one thing
that broke
me.

I'm not the girl I was b4.
He took that vessel broken
Glued it back with His love
Made it again with His grace
Its more beautiful now
best of all, there's strenth
to the beauty.

I'm not the girl I was b4
I'm praying for you each day
Not hoping for what was or can be
Not wishing for you now
I'm just being obedient
Being what I should have been
I'm not the girl I was B4

Tired

I'm so so so tired.
I can't keep my eyes open.
I don't want to do this any more.
I just want to sleep.
To drown in the soft cool fluffiness
of my own sweet bed
Just to stay there in oblivion
until there's no tiredness left
till I don't wanna sleep no more!!!

Meet me

Meet me here, in this place
meet me here, in this stillness
Fulfill all my desires
My heart is open before you
Fix what needs mended
sooth the painful parts
You alone are my healer
take my heart in your hands Lord
Burn away the filth Lord
Turn my eyes apon you alone
cause my heart to be a refreshing oasis
walk daily on the paths of my heart
fill me with the joys of your salvation
and only let me be a joy to you precious Jesus

Space....

Space....

What is it??

Where is the line??

Is it different for every one??

Does the line change- one day to the next?

Is it only the inches between us?

Or the distance between our hearts?

Space....

I don't like it,

When it means....

Farther from you.

MCDONALDS

I baptized my pen in coffee
It peed on me
No stirrers- McDonalds doesn't like me
But I like McDonalds-this one
Beacon in the night
Booths
Nooks and crannies
Bright lights
Crazy ppl
Big Golden Arches
Crispy Chicken wraps
Internet

Nasty Coffee

Thank You

Thank you God
For this peace...
I've needed so long

Thank you God
for restoring your joy
Deep in my soul

Thank you for loving me
thru times when I'm the worst

Thank you for helping me
find understanding from the confusion

Thank you for being
my all... my everything

Just Friends

Laying here, I wonder
My heart contemplates
What you are asking for..

How do I just be your friend?
When I long
to hear you say again
I love you, Sarah

How do I just be a friend..
say hello, whats up?
When my heart is crying
I love you hon, I miss you

How do I turn them off?
The thoughts, the memories
When all I remember
is how you've loved me?

How do I just be your friend?
when I long only for you
to take me
In your arms again

Please tell me how...
I don't know how
to just be your friend
I will try
to cover my heart
to hide my desire
ignore and pretend

I will hope
that soon you'll come
uncover my heart
and set me free again

Where do I go?? What do I do??

Where do I go?
What do I do?
Should I still try
to reach out to you?

Or do I let go-
let myself die
Kill the love
I still have inside?

I don't want to forget...
Cuz then I was the happiest
that I have ever, ever been
When I had you, my lover, my friend

Forget all the joy you brought me?
all the moments we shared?
All the peace that you gave me
When I knew that you cared?

I don't want to go back
to how I was before
you swept into my life
and carried me out the door

Before you opened up my world
to love I'd never dreamed of,
Opened my eyes
to beautiful things so sweet,
unwittingly tempted me
with joys that I'd never tasted

My heart says to stay,
to trust, and believe.
that the love that you gave me
is still what you said it would be

But was it all lies?
the longer that I do
Each time you pull away from me
my heart breaks in two

For now I am just trying
to get thru today alive
trusting Him, and just hiding
waiting for a sign

Of where do I go??
and what do I do??
meanwhile...with all my heart
I'm still loving YOU

Lord, please let me keep trusting and believing
if there is still a real hope...
thats what I desire to do
But please show me somehow
if I'm wasting my prayers and tears too....

The Place

I'm there, ppl all around me
life is moving by me
Yet time is standing still

People talking and laughing
I hear them, I see them
But so far away.
I am in my own little world

That place where no one can go,
no one else can feel
the fears, the hurts,
the tears, and the pain

When the door starts to open
Tears start to flow
I run to my hiding place
Where no one will know

When the door again shuts
I wipe the tears
try my best not to show
that inside it feels like I'm dying

I hate this place, I hate to come here,
but even more I hate
letting others see
what this is doing to me