Coyote!!!!

I was doing inventory at three o clock this morning, when Gigi came running out of her room saying "Miss Lemler!! Miss Lemler! Hurry! Come here! I just saw a coyote! A white one by your car!!" She pulled me into her room to look out her window, then when it wasn't there any more, I went back to work. A second later she comes running out again. "Miss Lemler! Miss Lemler!! I saw it again! Its running this way!" She ran across the house, jumping onto the couch and pulling open the curtains. She pointed, "See! There is goes! Its really hard to see it!" I was laughing and looking as hard as I could, I didn't see it. LOL. But it was so fun anyway. :-).

At Breakfast she was telling Rayz and Cielo about seeing the coyote, she and Rayz were sitting with thier backs to the big window-thier normal places. The curtains were open. Osita started making this wierd noise from the other room, causing even me to do a double take. Rayz jumped up so fast eyeing the window, "I'm not sitting by the window!!!" When she figured out that it was Osita making the noise, she uneasily took her seat again, and soon all three were chatting about things outside the windows again...

I had to leave the Dining Room for a sec, when Kitty pulled me aside and asked if she could go outside . I thought a minute, and when she told me what she wanted to do I couldn't resist. I let her. I went back to the Dining Room and stood opposite the window, joining into the conversation, laughing at Cielo's stories, and Gigi's antics. All the sudden there was a loud banging at the window, and a roar from outside. I've never seen Cielo, Gigi, Rayz, or Ember move so fast, or heard any one scream so high and loud as they did!!! They all jumped to thier feet in alarm, Rayz and Gigi nearly jumping over the table to get away from the window, thier eyes as big as saucers... I was trying so hard not to laugh, but when Tigger came in from the kitchen cracking up-she'd been in cahoots with Kitty- I couldnt hold it. Soon Cielo was doubled over laughing and then the other three were too. Some of us laughing till tears were in our eyes.

On top of this, One of the other staff called to let us know there was a two hour delay, so more cheers and laughter!!! :D. For my first morning alone, I think it went pretty well. Thank you Lord!!!

New Job

Eyes heavy, legs ache, Gotta knot in my shoulder, that won't go away no matter how I move. I forgot what it means to work a full time job, can't give in to the sweet sleep that seduces every moment after two am.

I love the girls, all of them, the mad ones, sweet ones, grumpy ones, annoying ones, and funny ones. The Irony that God has really cracks me up. I always said I wanted a bunch of boys... The other day the Director looked at me and said.. YOU are these girl's parents..... never dreamed I would end up with 10 girls. All to direct and guide, to care for, and cry over. God help me be worthy of the responsibility and priviledge.

Reaching

He sees me, Intrigued, wondering, he reaches to me, I give alittle, I reach alittle, he pulls back, its empty, no its not what he wanted. I see him, intrigued, wondering, I reach out, will he answer? He answers, reaching out, yet another one, he gives alittle, I pull back, nothing there, no, its not what I wanted. We see each other, Intrigued, wondering, we reach out, we give alittle, we pull back, its empty, no its not what we wanted....They all become friends, we all lose touch, except a few of them, think I am worth keeping around, for a good conversation every now and then.

When?

Just want someone to love... who loves me in return, who won't leave me. Is that so much to ask? I spend time with Jesus, my heart still aches. There is a huge hole gaping where Bret used to be. When do I get a turn to be loved? When?? When is it my turn to have someone to hold my hand, to hold me? Someone that I can be crazy about, and be happy with? When?

Wind

I am here
I need your spirit
May your wind blow strong
pull off the bitterness and sting
of being rejected
Fill me afresh with your life
and your presence
Let your love flow thru me
fill me up with you

Whats been happenin?

I am home alone this morning. I know God gives this peace that passes all understanding! Well, we all know He has promised to give it, but knowing you have it.. is a wonderful feeling! lol. I'm doing well. I am supposed to go in soon to have an interview for a job, one that I have thought for awhile that I would like to do. I don't know if I will get it or not, but I do know that God has something for me! :). I went thru a time where I thought for sure I am supposed to be in Virginia with my friend, but turns out she didn't need me to move out there. Maybe one day soon, or not so soon I will move out there. Its one of those things where I'm kindof feeling that God would bless me either way. He has maybe opened up somewhere over there that I could stay where I would trust the ppl I'm living with, and they would be helping me out if I need it. At the same time I am feeling that it might just be better to finish paying off debts b4 making a big move like that. I am so close... oooohhhh so close to paying off all my credit cards, I cannot WAIT till its done! lol. I know that "Rocking Chair" income... as my grandma calls unnemployment... will not last forever!! :) God has been showing me little by little what He wants in my life, and He has been teaching me PATIENCE!! ME!! learning PATIENCE! lol. I know its something that I will keep learning all my life, but I feel that with his help I have been taking strides in this area! Thank you Lord! Well, Today is the big SUPER BOWL!!! I am not too huge on either of the teams, so I am not as excited as I should be I guess, but I think I'm gonna celebrate with my fam today. Can't wait to see who wins!!!! :) Nuff for now! Maybe I'll go make some cookies... Sarah Leigh